This morning brought a hard realization—but also a holy one.
Back in early March, I was told I could submit an In-Network Gap Exception to have Dr. Chen covered for my cancer treatment. At the time, I felt overwhelmed and didn’t fully understand the process, so I pushed it aside. I circled back later—but now we’re walking through the consequences of that delay. Today, we received notice that the request was denied.
And yet—even here—I don’t feel abandoned. I feel led.
If I’m honest, this is something I’ve struggled with before. When things feel confusing or hard, I can shut down or put them off. But as I brought this to the Lord this morning, I sensed Him gently uncovering another layer—an invitation to walk in deeper surrender, deeper obedience, and deeper trust.
God is not intimidated by insurance systems, timelines, or numbers on a bill. He is not late, and He is not limited. What feels overwhelming to me is fully within His authority—and He is actively working on my behalf.
And this is what I’m choosing to anchor myself in right now:
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart
After we got the denial, I connected with Dan, and his calm was such a gift. Where I feel overwhelmed, he feels clarity. He stepped in right away and said, “This is where I thrive. I’ve got this.” I see the Lord’s provision in that—placing the right strength beside me exactly when I need it.
Instead of shrinking back, I am choosing to rise up in faith.
Today, we began the appeal process. With the help of some amazing support, I prepared four letters—one from me and three from my doctors. We’ve already begun getting those reviewed and signed, and once everything is gathered, we’ll submit a full appeal.
And we are not sending that appeal in fear—we are sending it in faith.
We are believing that it will reach the right hands, be expedited, and be approved. We are believing for favor that cannot be explained apart from God’s hand at work.
This week also brought another moment that tested me—a bill for $18,255.40 from an out-of-network lab. That hit hard. But even in that, the Lord is strengthening something in me.
He is my provider.
Not insurance. Not systems. Not outcomes.
I am learning, again, to trust Him not just spiritually—but practically, financially, emotionally… in all of it.
Tomorrow, I’ll be meeting with both oncologists and my naturopath to finalize a treatment plan. I feel ready to begin treatment as soon as possible, and I am trusting God to align every detail—insurance approval, finances, scheduling, and timing for port placement.
Nothing about this is outside of His reach.
If you’re praying with us, here are some specific ways you can pray:
That the insurance appeal would be approved quickly and without complication
For supernatural favor and advocacy with every person who reviews my case
For peace, clarity, and confidence in every decision
For financial provision, especially regarding unexpected bills
That treatment can begin quickly and smoothly, with every detail aligning
For wisdom and unity across my entire care team
And for me—to continue walking in faith, courage, obedience, and follow-through, even when things feel hard
I truly believe God is doing something deeper in me through this—not just around me.
Thank you for praying, for standing with us, and for believing with us.
We are not walking this road alone—and we are not without hope.
“I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living.”
— Psalm 27:13
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